Today at work a customer and I were discussing how completely useless the employee who covers on my days off is. This customer & I have spoken enough that he has a fairly decent grasp on me and my intelligence, he respects me, he’s aware that inside of me somewhere there is someone who wants to be more than someone who just slangs tobacco & e cigarettes, he assured me several times today that I would find my place in the world & this coupled with many many thoughts I’ve had recently has been pushing me in the right direction, to get back to school, to get back to moving forward. I just want to make something of myself, I want to do something with all of my potential & my talents, and I want to do something I love so I never feel like I am working. I just want to move forward & I feel like I am always moving backwards or standing still. I can never get ahead. Apr 16 I am full of potential & full of hatred & full of confusion.